I was talking to a friend of the phone this week and he is going through a very painful season in which he has convinced himself that God is punishing him because of the way he acted towards people as a teenager.I reminded him of what he knew in his head. Namely, that God is no longer angry with him. The wrath that Jesus bore on the cross he bore once and for all and so he stands now as a condemned sinner but as a forgiven and loved Child.
But I dare say there are some of you who are reading this blog know in your head that, in love, Jesus bore the wrath that was yours but in your heart you feel like he is still angry with you. Maybe you feel like he is angry with you because you had a sexual encounter that you shouldn’t have had, maybe it was because you feel like you don’t read the Bible and pray enough. Maybe you feel that way because of your circumstances, you look around and you see where your life is at and you feel like God must be angry at you.
But the great news is, if you trust in Jesus, God isn’t angry at you!
No matter what you have done or when you had done it. No matter where your life is at now, if you have put your faith in Jesus, God is no longer looking down on you in anger. He is only looking down on you in love.
The reason that we feel like God is angry with us is because the theology of our heads hasn’t taken up residence in our hearts.
How do you get that theology in your head down in your heart? You need to preach to yourself. Martin LLoyd Jones said that:
“Have you realized that most of your unhappiness in life is due to the fact that you are listening to yourself instead of talking to yourself? Take those thoughts that come to you the moment you wake up in the morning. You have not originated them, but they start talking to you, they bring back the problems of yesterday, etc.
Somebody is talking.
The main art in the matter of spiritual living is to know how to handle yourself. You have to take yourself in hand, you have to address yourself, preach to yourself, question yourself. You must say to your soul: ‘Why art thou cast down’– what business have you to be disquieted?
You must turn on yourself, upbraid yourself, condemn yourself, exhort yourself, and say to yourself: ‘Hope thou in God’– instead of muttering in this depressed, unhappy way. And then you must go on to remind yourself of God, Who God is, and what God is and what God has done, and what God has pledged Himself to do.
Then having done that, end on this great note: defy yourself, and defy other people, and defy the devil and the whole world, and say with this man: ‘I shall yet praise Him for the help of His countenance, who is also the health of my countenance and my God.’”
–D. Martyn Lloyd-Jones, Spiritual Depression: Its Causes and Its Cure
Do you remind yourself of that God’s great love? Every day remind yourself of how much God loves you and how much he has done for you. Right now, stop what you are doing and take time to remind yourself of the gospel and how you are now right with God and how he sees you as his precious child and because of that you are more loved than you can ever imagine.
Do that daily and the theology of your head will infiltrate your heart!
You may also like: